I would consider myself a planner, that's at least what I have been told. What I mean by this is that I try to plan day-by-day activities and I make so many mental to-do notes, it would fill binders. But, what I plan the most is my (our) future, which is at times very unrealistic.
When I was in college, I tried to plan how our relationship would play out and when I look at our current life, I could never imagine it to be this way. Happy. Little stress. Comical. It is way better than I ever could have imagined.
Also while in college, I had career goals and a plan of what would happen. Get accepted to graduate school, finally pass all exams and classes, apply to residency, etc. Following the wedding, I had a very specific timeline of taking a board exam, getting into residency, getting pregnant, and more. Well, after a more than horrible week at school, most of this will be changed around and in my life changing major life plans is like a hurricane. I am not taking the exam when I expected I to, I do not expect my residency plans will work out, and I know that getting pregnant is not like snapping your fingers and can take months or be unexpected.
If six months to two years of my plans are not to go my way, it literally shakes my little world and although I am aware of it, I start to think very egocentrically. It usually takes me a few days (or a week) to calm down and shake the selfish feelings of thinking everything should go my way.
I know that everything happens for a reason - even really bad weeks at school or not getting into a program I may want. I also always give this advice when others may be down, so I should own it and take my own advice.
Hmph!
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Juliet
When I was in college, I tried to plan how our relationship would play out and when I look at our current life, I could never imagine it to be this way. Happy. Little stress. Comical. It is way better than I ever could have imagined.
Also while in college, I had career goals and a plan of what would happen. Get accepted to graduate school, finally pass all exams and classes, apply to residency, etc. Following the wedding, I had a very specific timeline of taking a board exam, getting into residency, getting pregnant, and more. Well, after a more than horrible week at school, most of this will be changed around and in my life changing major life plans is like a hurricane. I am not taking the exam when I expected I to, I do not expect my residency plans will work out, and I know that getting pregnant is not like snapping your fingers and can take months or be unexpected.
If six months to two years of my plans are not to go my way, it literally shakes my little world and although I am aware of it, I start to think very egocentrically. It usually takes me a few days (or a week) to calm down and shake the selfish feelings of thinking everything should go my way.
I know that everything happens for a reason - even really bad weeks at school or not getting into a program I may want. I also always give this advice when others may be down, so I should own it and take my own advice.
Hmph!
:0)
Juliet
I just had to change my life schedule due to LOTS of headaches...I'm a planner, too, so it's been tough. For me, the hardest part was agonizing over the decision. I've been able to find lots of advantages to the new timeline, which helps! So here's hoping you can find advantages...when you're ready for them. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Sara :0)
ReplyDeleteIt's tough to make changes when I can be so stubborn and want to keep my original plans! Sure you can understand!